Me and MLNP
By MakeLoveNotPornstar _*_SexMagic_*_
So how did I get here? It’s obviously a long and funny story with no clear beginning or end. Somehow through it all, I found myself being a MakeLoveNotPornstar. This was so expected and unexpected that I’m still trying to take it all in. It’s been just about a month since we began sharing our #realworldsex on MLNP and it still feels fresh and exciting!
So what does it mean to be an MLNPstar? THAT is what I’m still trying to figure out. In the process, I’m having orgasms and pleasures of all sorts roll all over me. I’m learning to be open and inviting in both my life and with my lover. Sharing this private life with the public feels like a huge leap of faith. I picture it in my mind feeling a lot like a cliff dive. My soul and spirit know that I’m already soaring in the air yet my mind is still grappling with the uncertainty of it all.
As a MLNPstar, I express my love for myself, my husband and the world. We record it and then share it on the worldwide web. Yes, I have sex on camera! Sex with myself, my husband, and this life. It’s just as vulnerable as it sounds and just as scary. Yet at the end of the day, I find myself saying yes more, laughing more, orgasming much more, and sharing it in ways I couldn’t have even imagined. I love* showing up in my life so fully, vulnerably, and erotically.
Coincidentally, becoming a MLNPstar happened after I had committed myself to preforming in a burlesque show. Funnily enough, it was my parents who gifted me burlesque classes for Christmas. In my mind, I have both their blessings and approval — not that I need it! Consequently, becoming both a burlesque performer and a MLNPstar has led me to the sexiest year so far and we’re only into February.
Around the beginning of the year, my friend told me about MLNP. We were chatting beside the river as we shared a toke. She said that she was inspired by my sex life, by my relationship with my husband and the world. She told me that the MLNP platform would love me, get me, and celebrate me. That for sure got me thinking. That day, I came home excited and giddy to my husband. When the kids went to bed we found the TED talk about MLNP. I was instantly hooked. The next day, I went to sign us up and my love told me he already had. We started that night.
Our first video is called “Horny Parents After Kids Bedtime” and both of us have been enjoying each other in new ways ever since. Our biggest hit so far was a video called “Sex Swing Squirts” and it was just as fun to make as it sounds. We’re about 12 videos in now and each one has a range of dancing, stretching, swinging, playing, bouncing, laughing, orgasming and lots of loving.
On the first Friday of the year, I woke up to my husband announcing that we were not only published, but our video was also in the newsletter stating we’re new and hot this year. That was equally exciting and scary because it was like a whole new me was created overnight. I’ve never shared my intimacy like that on the internet — especially the sex. I’ve been a dancer for most of my life so I do know the thrill of the stage, but nothing could prepare me for how I felt when I saw myself in that newsletter. I wanted to make more love instantly and a lot more of it.
We still go through days where we wonder if we’re doing the right thing. Our communication skills have had to go through a major upgrade so we can be rooted in our integrity and truth while navigating this whole new world. I realize the right thing is different for each of us. At the end of the day, I’m the only one that is able to say what’s right for me. I’m enjoying it — all the messy parts and all the orgasmic ones which sometimes coincide. The messy parts can look like squishy squirts, loud queefs or having hard conversations that we have to make space for. Because at MLNP, all parts of us are welcome. Even the confusing ones — the ones that flip back and forth and lead to the uncertainty that gives us the perfect fuel for hot fires of excitement.
I’m rediscovering who I am in ways that feel empowering and crazy all at the same time. I hope I inspire you to become the fullest version of yourself and express yourself in all the ways that give you joy. I wish for you to discover new ways to orgasm and find new pleasures all around you. Live the life that you want to live and celebrate it with the ones that get you.
Thank you for celebrating me on MLNP for who I am. Thank you for getting me and loving me. Thank you for all the comments that have warmed my heart and made me appreciate what I do. Thank you for inviting me to have more sex and to love it!
